Humanly speaking, I was both enthusiastic and tired at the same time when I woke up this morning =] It was quite terrible as I was packing all my worksheets since Secondary two till now =] Well, I know it is my fault, my business or problem that I did not organise my worksheets and stuff =] Well, I confessed it was my laziness however, I shall not let it happen Again ._. I wanted to say Amen but I don't want to sound too religious here hahas =] Okay Fine ! Praise the Lord =] Sounds rather soothing =] I really acknowledged Jesus as my savior ever since I have known him since last year, I mean His grace and love for just pour out in limitless supply =] It is just speaking forth my Words of thanksgiving to my God that He who has no sin became sinned and we became the Righteousness of God =] Oh boy ! Here I go again =] Going off topic =] Where were we ?
Uh-huh =] I thought it would be a wonderful day ahead =] It did and Praise the God that this new principal was not that bad =] At least she shares her life experiences in various schools even overseas' =] I was dozing off but I think she has motivated me quite a lot =] Hence, I would glue my eyeballs on her and listen attentively... Unlike YOU KNOW WHO ! =] hahas I shall not mention names here =] I don't want to sound like I am casting aspersion on people when they have not =] I mean it is God's grace hahas =] Before that... Woho ! Hallelujah =] Apart from that, I think I had grown much and mature much each year =] I had better be !!
Last year was fun and thrilling but lots of down cast for me =[ It is the most traumatic life ever ._. I shan't tell you =] Anyway, it hurts to say or recall =] It was those days that I went insane and desperate that I just could not think much but just to go blank =[ Well, I admit that I sobbed terribly ._. Let me tell you how I felt alright, it felt like someone stab me right on my heart and twist it ! Thank God I did not suffer from emotion break down =[ Or else I will not be here =] What I am trying to emphasise is that this entire world is Cynical (Including me) but it can be changed =] Your methods I don't know ! My way is to Look to Jesus and said ''You have bore this 2000 years ago, therefore it is finished''. Looking to him not only gave me relief but also peace in my heart and soul =] After all, everything pours back to your heart =] Like my Pastor said ''It is okay to be a bad child with a Good heart but it is not when you have a bad heart but physically you look harmless and cool''. It is like saying a calm exterior but hiding your usual belligerence/nature =] It is far true as many people around the world are emphasising it over and over again =] Your heart is your temperaments that is in you =] Like Tim Lahaye said :''There is no other influence in your life that is more powerful than your temperament or combination or temperaments. It is essential to know your temperaments, not to condemn others, but so you can maximize your potential and enable others to maximize theirs''. It took me quite a while to understand this however, when it finally did =] I realised that what I have done was rather selfish and self-centered... =] Not too late to learn =] Moving on...
Actually life is not so much of painstaking one... It is whether you want it or not =] If you treat every problem in your life as a challenge not by judging as a problem, I doubt it will be a disappointment to you after going through it =] People fail because they did not believe that it is impossible to resolve... Like I mentioned earlier that the World is Cynical however, in order to be different from the World, we have to isolate ourselves from others and remain calm on our own for certain times =] Retrospecting, I think life is far much greater without anyone who is causing or giving agonies to your life... Having to said that, being a lone is not a bad thing either =] alone not lonely =] Alone is temporary but loneliness perpetuals in your life ... Therefore, revisit, reconsider what you wish for and say =] Time will be the ultimate judger =] For me I refuse to judge my circumstances against Jesus who bore the cross.... It is insulting to Him who have taken all our sins and punishments so that God will not be angry with us Every Again =]
I am amazed by the word ''Love'' =] It fascinates me whenever anything is under the theme of Love =] It reminds me of many memorable things =] Most importantly, Jesus everlasting Love for me =] He never fails me =] Amen ! =]
I am going to close here =] Remember, Right Believing leads to Right living =]
Signing off
Gerwin
Signing off
Gerwin
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